My Lyra,my world!

I don't know if I will get some type of credit for trying.





Recognition for trying to do what was right , even though it hurts...




But I have to think of whats best for you.




From the moment I laid eyes on you  I felt a deep unexplainable love and undying connection for you.



A feeling that drives me to protect and care for you every second since we have met.



a feeling that trumps any other feelings I have ever had for any other person.


even though i lose sleep. even though sometimes i get pooped on and there is puke in my hair, my feelings for you never change. And that is true love






But i feel so guilty because even though I know its for the better i feel as if i am robbing you of something that you deserve.



i have stayed, even though he hurt me and made me feel like nothing. even though i moved 1000+ miles just to be someones door mat and a tax exemption. Slept in a room/bed with no love....spent countless days in a cold empty house waiting for 5pm just to be ignored and unappreciated. And not matter how much i hurt each day i still went to sleep with the hope and excitement that tomorrow would be a happier day for me.





but tomorrow never came.....and it has been one whole year of waiting for tomorrow.



But now when I wake up, I have you! my world.





I no longer wait for 5pm...now i wait for you to wake up or to show me something new that you have learned.



this house is not cold anymore...it has warmed with every laugh and smile that you give to me...



We are a family. Me and you..



even though you were not initially in my plans, I could not have asked for  a more perfect sign/blessing from God.




and your love outweighs the lies, rejections, insults and bruises i have endured to give you a better life than i had....but it will all be over soon...and you will never have to see me hurt or crying again....





always remember Mami loves you, and I am going through hell and high water to give you everything you want and deserve  in life.

Even if it means i have to spend a few more years of my life being miserable. you are worth it. and always will be. there is no greater love than the love i have and feel for you! <3 br="br">